0003.1 My Edge

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Everyone’s edge is different, not as in a special snowflake kinda way, cuz that’s all bullshit. We will all die and we will all suffer. Just think about it this way, all snowflakes fall into an unrecognizable form of snow like all the other snowflakes. You are not special. HOWEVER, your edge is. Now this will be the most important thing i say about your edge

YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DESCRIBE YOU EDGE

You will be able to flow with your edge and use it. But you will never be able to describe it, the second you start to try and describe it you will dull and lose it. This is because your edge is something that only you will understand, and there is no language to describe it to others or even yourself. You know how it feels to use it, isn’t that the only important thing? Nothing else matters.

Why did I decide to write about this? A Little history. I think differently than other people, I see things, notice things, make connections that other people don’t. (there is no other way to describe this other than sounding like an asshole, bite me (I taste good, I swear (like caramel chocolate (anywho…)))). This has made simple human interaction and communication difficult for me and has slowly dulled my blade over time. Why?

BECAUSE I HAD TO ADAPT EVERYTHING I DID

Just to be able to communicate with people, interact with society in a normal manner. Only in a recent random talk with my parents did I re-realize that I’ve been doing this my entire life. After that conversation, I thought about it. I haven’t truly honed my edge in many years. So what now? Now hone my blade (destroying the parts that don’t fit). Since then I’ve had many experiences and I now know that I can use my real edge. The problem was how I was wielding it.  

SIDENOTE: (relationships and breakups definitely helped. Always…. A fun…. timmmmeeeee)

So, time for me to hone my own edge, I need to destroy the parts that I added on over the years. Carefully realizing why I added them and then honing my edge to slice through the same problem but with me. (writing these blogs help me sharpen my edge) Something that my edge helps me do is think and write with extreme clarity, a small flow state if you will. Another thing i’ve been doing to hone it is day trading the stock market. I find that the more I follow the “feel” of things, the better I do, no reading, no research, just trusting my intuition and instinct.

THE MORE I TRUST, THE EASIER IT GETS

If I can just trust, I don’t have to even think about it. Same goes for business. If I can tell someone what to do and they get it done, my mind doesn’t even think about the task anymore. It has been “offloaded”. This applies itself well to management and decision making, I don’t flip flop over decisions. I take immediate and direct action based on my prior knowledge, my trust in the team. And my intuition.

This could also easily fuck me if someone is untrustworthy… I have a pretty good radar for that now.

OTHER PEOPLE CAN SENSE EDGE

Not really, but have you ever met someone and been like “damn they shit is together bruh”. You probably just thought they were really attractive. BUT, people can actually sense edge, they don’t know that is what they are sensing. There is so much shit that people don’t fully understand, but their brain tells them about it anyways, having an edge is one of those things. When you meet someone who has honed it. You can tell immediately just by their presence. Kinda like when someone has confidence (actual, not fake (which we will talk about in the neeeexxxtttt random assortment of words))

What is your edge? How does it help you?

Find it, center it.